Spirit, please comeback!

Ehems..=) Evening readers! My mind is very miserable right now..i'm thinking about many things, mean so many things and its about everything..hurmms! I wish i could go back to see my family right now. I need somebody to talk, to listen to my problems, to listen to my complaints..ohh well welll, i need rest! but it doesn't mean i need sleep :O

Tomorrow got Algebra's test! Eventhough its only a test but still its pretend like an exam..and its pretty important too..during this weekend, i did nothing! i dunno what i'm done during these two days! damn it! I lost my spirit, i lost my intention, i lost my goal, i lost almost everything! haishh! its because after i know something but i can't tell you! i want to talk about it but seems like this blog is not suitable to write it here! =( thats why i need somebody now! :'(

I cried almost everyday and pray for this problem to come to the end. Until now, these is remain like this. I guess this is the most crucial problem, biggest problem, hardest problem that i need to going through. Oh, you! please pray for my happiness. thank you ~

p/s: I wish I could be in a small town which no ones knows me and i just being myself by having a small cottage with 'food' around it :\ 

How it feels?

Hye! how it feels when Terengganu lost the match? oh mannnn! disappointing-L-A-H! =( Is like a small heart attack when Sharbinee suddenly entering up the unwanted goal! but, i'm positive! its not his fault just its already their luck. I mean negeri sembilan's luck! well well, congrats to them. I know how it feels just same the happiness that happen to Terengganu in previous final FA when Daudsu (klantanese) 'giving' a goal to Terengganu. Its just same happened to night only the diff was its happened to n9..again, congrats =)

Most of my friends was negeri's fan..well, u'know i'm stay such a long time at negeri's and most of my friends comes from there plus my father was orang nogori too..hehs! thats why at first i'm a bit confusing in choosing team to night but i go for terengganu just because i'm realized  that Terengganu was my first fav team and like i told you before, i'm fall in love with football right after i saw the FA match in past few months..hehe

When i open up my fb acc, most of them or i can say all? was busy updating status about this match and most was like hobin jang hobin..ohhhh! can i click the unlike button? hehs! but we all are Malaysian..tomorrow will be back to normal..no more talking like you are strangers =)

I'm very excited to watch this game until i'm willing to stay at Siamese's Cafe to watch this until the end..and i'm feel very happy, enjoyable, excited at first..ohh, undescribable feelings! Terengganu score a goal at first! it gives me and Terengganu fan's the sunshine and hopes to win..thanks anyway =) You did a good job actually just like i told you earlier to night was negeri's luck. In future? no one knows =.='

Matches was like and exams too..sometimes we pass with excellent target but sometimes also we failed too..so, when we failed, just backup, won't look at the back and start to improve the 'things'..oh, well! Terengganu, i know you can do it =) Honestly, i'm not regret at all to spent my night to gives my support =) Its because, i'm die hard fan of football..hihi :P

ehems =)

p/s: i can predict much well on what will happen on Monday's class =)

Again :O

Hey hey hey..i'm back! hehe :P Not so many thing need to be share as my mid sem break coming soon..very soon..yeahhh! thumbs up! =) I got one week holiday including leaves for Hari Raya Haji..sumpah kedekut cuti kan? hehs :S Today is already Saturday, just got 5 days more to go..yeay! eh, btw i'll come back on Thursday i guess..pleaseeee En. KA, make your class on monday..please please please!!! gedik much? hehs =)

Oh, before that! i need to face Algebra and Calculus test on Monday night! duhhhh :O but luckily the topic just include until matrices..Alhamdulillah..hehs =) i got blur much went it comes to function..yeah! really! =( anybody can help? hehe :S

Today is final for Piala Malaysia andddd the final team was Terengganu vs Negeri Sembilan..i plan to watch it at D' Tom Yam with my housemate..well, y'know! i'm big fan of football =.=' hehs :P but the problem is i dunno which team i'm for because i love both! really! Negeri Sembilan was like my hometown eventhough i'm not really from there but still most of my years had been there and Terengganu is my fav team all the times plus fyi, first time i fall in love with football was after i watch out Terengganu vs Kelantan in previous final FA and i'm a big fan of Terengganu on that time.. oh, well! again, y'know Terengganu won that match..heeee =)

Now, how it could be? I go for Terengganu-L-A-H since both Aidil and Zaquan was already married..HAHAHA! :P eh, not because of that actually! =) i'm prefer Terengganu because my family stay there now oh maybe when my mom transfer back to N9, i'll choose N9?? oh, no one knows..hehe :P

My current life now actually quite miserable..oh, i'm also dunno how to describe it! damn it! :O feels like wanted to go so far away, meant far away..oh, well! to see my family first? maybe cause so long not to see my family, no talking face to face..yeah! u'know! we only texting, calling everyday but still not same when we are meet..ah, u'know that kind of feelings! =)

I miss my mom's cooking a lot! stay independent not so cool actually! really! i'm just pretend like i'm strong stay far from family. All time i'm said i'm okay to them but its actually not! i miss them badly! :( I'm already been stay far starting my boarding school but still i'm can be consider i'm a homesick person hiew hiew =) On the phone is like i'm happy much to be here, my voice, my language, my way showed i'm enjoyed much, stay strong, stay be a superwomen! but its actually wasn't! :O

I miss to be with them plus my roomate going back everyweek eventhough sometimes we only have one day leaves! lucky her! =) everytimes when she come back i'm feel touched! and i'm thinking bout my family! 2 months played pretty fast but this one week seems had such a long time to be arrive! really! :O

No need money, no need travelling, no need lepaking with bestfriends, no need shopping at jusco, mydin, MC or what-so-ever. All i want is to see my family now! dear Thursday, please come faster! seriously :S  

Sometimes when i said i'm okay

I want someone to look at me

in the eyes,

hug me tightly and say

i know y're not.. 

i smile 

cause i want to hide my pain

i act strong

cause i want to hide my weakness

i pretend enjoyed myself

cause i want to hide my hard tears inside..

p/s: i love quotes so much cause i know only by reading those quotes i'm feel much better =)

I'm touch!

I'm touched!

pinjam bahu boley?

:'(

Cloudy Days

Nothing much to be shared today since most of the time i was lepaking in my room..sleeping, studying, housekeeping..yeahh! plus with a very cloudy day..fuhh! sounds very nice to have a good sleep right?hehe

Tomorrow gonna starts a new day..hehs! spirit! please comeback! i'm feels a bit bored everytime wants to be in monday mood..ahh! everyone does it, is't? well well, to night got discussion for fst assignment..fuihhhh! Actually i love to be study alone at night rather then study or joining group discussion at night..the most probably suitable time to do that is in the evening..i guess?hehs.

Again, heavy schedule for tomorrow and the next day..ohh! please, stop sigh my dear Aida! always remember your real intention to be here..hiew hiew! :P I miss my home very much..UTeM, please apply the leave on 24 and 25 of october..please please..i need a long holiday to see my family..arghh! dearest myself, keep calm! Allah just wanted to test your faith..and He know very well that you can handle it pretty much =)

p/s: i miss my fb, a lot :'(

So Hard

Its has been three days i haven't blogging..hell yeah! one word.busy. =) since today, i didn't go out as usually weekend..for the first time, my saturday was being fulfill with completing assignment, doing notes, housekeeping, and didn't went out even to buy the food..HAHA!

Seems a bit weird but i need to survive because my money is went out already..i try hard not to ask the money from my parents as they already give me more than enough monthly just the way i spend over it need to change some more..well, shopping is like a girl's bestfriend..same goes to me! everytime i went out, i never use less then 30 bucks..see? its too much right? but in real, its rarely happen because most of the time i spend more then 80 bucks..ngeeeeeeeeee!

Maybe a part of you feel like, 'eleh, sikit je tu' but for me its bad. really bad! Since i know how manage my budget pretty well if i doesn't going out..huh? i doesn't mean that i doesn't have it at all but for sure whats is left is for the emergency case..yeah, now i admit my sister said, is not easy to manage your money when u're uni student plus all i can say my place was nearer to the town, mean..really town! they have everything here! You can enjoy your day to the fullest! plus with very loose regulation..hiew hiew :P Hopefully I never forgot my real intention to be here! Insya-Allah =)

By any chance,if you are being offered a car or a motorcycle for your own usage, would you take it?? hurmm..there's so many good and bad side..ahhh! everyone actually dream to have it right? oh, well! some goes to me plus my hostel is so suck here! its so hard to find for a food..i didn't say it doesn't have those place at all but they only have one cafe here or i can say like a stall maybe? huh?

p/s: whatever it is, i'm still with Liverpool..heheh :p

Jogs!

Being as a University student not so cool as you think of. A lot of assignments, tutorials, quizzes, test, exam, mini project, final project..Ahhh, thats not including aside co-curricular activities that you join for extra marks for SMP...haihhh..see? not so cool right? HAHAHA!

But, every people have their own style to enjoy themselves..yeahh! i had too even-though sometimes quite stress with too packed schedule, alot assignment plus really doesn't understand those subject pretty well then on the next day suddenly got pop quiz..haihh! Fortunately, i got to know so many friends here or i can say all of them are very good to me..means, very. =.=' I'm feel bless to know them..they give me full support every time i tell them what i'm feels to be here! thank you. =)

aims high =)

Todays story was very unplanned! hehe..i got a message at 3pm when i was in mamai..they ask me to join them to jog at 5.30pm..so, i said, 'okaylah'..when the times goes by, they said lets walk until mydin..my expression was like 'whoaaaaa, :O seriously?' i thought just around my college ..its okay then HAHAHA

still fat?? =.=' fuhh

So, we walk about 3-5km..going to MITC first to see international event for Karate..ok. stop to get free milo sejuk..HAHAHA..then the journey begin..hehe..overall, i'm feels bless today, release some tension cause by physics this morning..fuishhh! susah jugakk :(

see? milo sejukk..hihi :P

Sometimes the wrong decision bring us to the right way of life..does you feel so? =)

p/s: thanks for being so humble to me =))

Awake =)

Hello world =) good morningggg! heheh :P i'm not just woke up actually because i did some tutorials and note for algebra, its good right? hihi :P i sleep early yesterday, too early :P right after isya' i guess =) so, now early in the morning i feels the fresh instead in my body and air too =)

Still got tutorial for physics need to be done plus study for quiz physics tomorrow..haihhh! hey heyy heyy! i know i can do it just put more effort beyond that..ah, y'know, physic is my crucial subject now :( wheather i like it or not, i need to survive on this subject..wuwuwu :')

This blog seems like a unofficial diary for me..ah-HA! a big thanks for you cause reading this blog..fyi, this blog is the way for me to improve my english by writing in english..if you read my other blog, yes, it is in malay! sometimes my writing in english quite weird but is up to you wants to laugh at me..HAHA!

Tired.

Evening. Hows your day? Mine was good..erkkhh? No really. or maybe not at all =.=' Feeling tired as i wanted to let you know my packed schedule for today was very packed. very very packed! Started at 8 am until 7pm..but actually the class from 8am to 11am was cancel in the last minute..huhh! kejam gilaa since we all wait for one hour totally after discussing postpone to 9am..weihhh! if my hostel was nearer like my previous matrik, sure i'll come back but here the way is about 10-15km kot?? memang gila lah nak balik kan? fuhh!

So, i just wait there study for the quiz and sleep for a while..HAHA! About the quiz, i perform quite well..i guess so =) ehems! About him? ahh! i'm really felt the pain inside.really! Nothing happen today but most of my friend can feels the 'somethings wrong' about us. Let them guess and time to judge plus i didn't share anything, story anything, tell them anything..if they know the 'thing', for sure it doesn't come out from mine..so, who else know the story? you guess~

Tiring day wasn't an often things came to my life..yeah, its true! imma a person who have a lot of 'lepak time' but when this things happen to my body, feels terencat sikit lah..hehe I want to start my diet today, pray for me =)

Algebra and Calculus i guess it the most hated subject of mine but it wasn't actually! hehe..hebat en? HAHA! Physics is more dangerous now since i already left them for about two years maybe? fuhh, thursday having the quiz of technical physics..haiyooo! gila gila :P

p/s: settle this things only between me and you is the best answer i guess?

Stress Up!

I didn't hurt you
I just wanted to make fun of you
Being such a good friend
Whom always be with you 
no matter how physically are you
as a friend.


I know how to separate those feelings
between friends and boyfriend
Don't get me wrong!
I didn't mean to hurt you, really!
Even our friends didn't notice it
How you could do that to me?
You don't know how hurts i'm now
'Thanks' for this thing


I never missed the old you 
Because i just know you
for one month, it is!
So, when this thing happened
I know what to do next..


Good Luck for me and you for tomorrow's quiz =)


p/s: i'm deactive my fb because of you. happy much? huh? =.='

It's Penyu!

To night is the night

Penyu vs Kijang

what be yours?

mine, PENYU LAH =)

Unprepared

Well well well..my pop quiz will start in few hours..but still i pretend like nothing will happen..arghhh! its about matrices babe! ni yang aku lemah betul! the most hated topics when i was in matrix as well as integration and differentiation. Again, i see u here! haishh! watcha say?? Redha sajalahhh =)


Today's i got class early in the morning and late at the evening..see? how unpacked my schedule..HAHA! eh, no lah..actually my lecturer doesn't come today but still need to ganti his class on friday..ishhh! baru je nak rehat 3 hari =.="


I'm wearing Liverpool jersey today..eh, itu pun nak bagitau?? HAHA! perlu lah..! if you can see how excited i am wearing this :O hehe.. y'know what? today i planned to buy a new pin number for ptptn because the late one was rejected..haishh! malas nak cerita :B So, i start a new one..but, i CAN'T BUY the number because HEPA wasn't cancel my previous one..cancel letter i've sent a week ago kot? ahh, mybe two weeks ago..but they didn't did their work! they didn't sent the letter to PTPTN office! haishhh..sumpah geram gilaaaa!  The previous PTPTN was cancel also cause by them..eeeee! if they as me to sent by myself, i still can do that! see? how i need to face the trouble!


I won't ask for ptptn if i born with silver spoon lahh! so, the final answer, i ask the things for the second sem or maybe not for ptptn..scholarship i guess?? hehe..ok. lets pray for my success.thankyou. =)


A phase for you,
You know the story but you pretend like doesn't!


p/s: bila nak pujuk aku?

Long Days

Hey hey hey..i've been not blogging for soooo long..watcha say? yeah! it is! M-A-L-A-S! well well! i dunno how to start it again since lama dah tinggalkan dunia blogging but still i'll come back when the midsem break come as well as formspring and twitter =)

My life now? yeah! it's pretty fast..i can't described on what had happend to me :| yeah! weird feeling.towards anything.~ maybe sometimes i feel bless to be here but sometimes i feel glad to be at matrik. huh? nobody knows even mine also can't described my feeling, my mind at all :O

Right now, alots of tutorials, reports, assignments, quizzes, tests waiting for me..fuhh, anybody can help me? ya, no ones =.=' i'm stress much but still under control but then when it comes to private life, i am miserable :O y'know what? i got confusing with everything!! i'm act normal towards everyone..yes, it is! since i haven't start a relationship with anyone..but sometimes they feels like i wanted to tackle them..haishhh! tolonglah jangan perasan! maybe thats my bad simply act peramah at everyone but still i know how to separate between feeling as a friend and boyfriends! got it? yeah, maybe u can't understand me. ok, i'm unpreadictable..ohh..whatever-lah.. tapi still, aku belum suka sesiapa!! haishh! please don't misunderstood me!

i have this one, but let be a secret first
For you, I miss you =)